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Imaginings

I have been falling
for quite some time, my arms
pinwheeling madly through
blue, blue skies; forever
have I waited, forever have I
prayed to meet the tangle
of your distant eyes, to
see the lips that stretch and
slip and smile, to recognize the swell
of skin over bones.

I have dreamed of you;
you move as in water, slow
languid, the thin lick
of summer's tongue on the icy
snow; your voice so angelic
the air shatters with force;
I woke with tears on my cheeks
and the taste of bitter
impossibility searing my tongue.

I have loved you so much
my heart yearns to be free of the
weight, the cold icy chill of being
trapped in fire; you who have
never looked twice my way who might
love me, love me, if you'd only 
met me, if you'd only look into my eyes,
if you'd only saw me through
the endless, endless sea of imaginings.

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